Agony - cloudless skies


The clear blue sea beckoned
a land of blue skies and sunshine
I drifted aimlessly from one place to another
fate was kind to me that day
a deep sense of despair overwhelmed me
the unknown fear
feeling frightened that me might be killed
I groaned at the memory, suffering all over again the excruciating embarrassment of those moments
I felt a sudden surge of anger
anger burn inside of me
tidal forces
a tidal surge
cloudless skies
hidden feelings suffocation
I looked at sky with intense hatred
feeling hatred towards the fear
a profound hatred of war
racial hatred!
I live forsake hatred
I abandoned myself to despair
I had to abandon my lands
how could I heal scar
I was never able to heal the rift between myself and my scattered thoughts
I effort to heal the rift between the mind and the soul have failed
the legacy of my soul still bears the scars of war
my dreams died years ago and the scar hasn’t healed yet
It is inhuman to keep a man facing the agony of execution for so long
I can’t escape the pressure
pleading for the time
sanity
tranquility
life pain and misery
I don’t know, how I could chose my path
infinite suffering
internal decay
clinging lifgt to the end
absolutely shattered
I looked shattered by the end of the game!!
Is my life an internal sin?
It seemed reality fadded away
shattered life hate agnoy and dismay
I could not hide my dismay at the moment
I forsook the soul
prolong the agony
As I live forsaken haterd!

  • Tom Broderick IPA

    Tom Broderick IPA

    wow very dark. tom

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thanks tom my friend!

  • Gregory John O'Flaherty

    Gregory John O...

    sad days Ushna….......

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    yep Greg!
    thanks my friend!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles

  • TeriLee

    TeriLee

    This is so intense….fantastic writing…you have a way of asking those profoundly philosophical questions…
    Is my life an internal sin?

    Could be an entire series of books…lol….great job :)

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thank you so much sweet terilee!
    you are such a sweetheart friend!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles xoxoxoxox

  • barnsis

    barnsis

    So much hatred and no seeming way out. Sad.

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    yep byron! thats true!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles my friend!

  • Sally Omar

    Sally Omar

    Ushna, Very profound…Sally xxoo

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thanks sweet Sal!
    huggles xoxoxox

  • devotee1

    devotee1

    There is no reason or justification in acts of senseless violence. In the end, no one gains…and everyone suffers.

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    well said Joe!
    thanks my friend!
    huggles

  • redhawk

    redhawk

    Ushna, your profound look at the different lives of people, war, racial inequality, abusiveness of planet, life, and humans is an amazing sight.

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thank you so much sweet red!
    appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles xoxoxoxox

  • Dwayne Boyd

    Dwayne Boyd

    the legacy of my soul still bears the scars of war
    my dreams died years ago and the scar hasn’t healed yet
    50,000 watts of power here!

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thank you so much Dwayne my friend!
    glad you liked!
    huggles

  • mtda

    mtda

    Excellent. At first glance it may seem that there is no hope in this, but the very fact that you ask some of the questions you do implies that there is still hope. Great work.

  • Ushna Sardar replied

    thanks mtda! appreciate your precious comments!
    huggles my friend!

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